Something's Missing

 As I've said before, I'm always surprised to see that this blog is still up and running. But here it is. And so am I. 

However infrequent I do post, I do remember doing the posting. And I remember that within the past few years, I was involved in a challenge of sorts with a friend who had a similar experience in regard to posting. So I rose to the occasion and for a few weeks actually posted on a semi-regular basis.

But those post seemed to have gone missing. 

Not sure where they might have gone, but I am pretty sure that I did post them. Pretty sure. Now I have to figure that out.

Or not.

Still here?

I'm always surprised to find that this blog is still up and running. As I have said many times before, I am the world's worst blogger. Or the worlds most infrequent blogger. Whatever. I don't pay for this service - or at least I don't think I do. And I hope that, like crypto, this blog is not cutting some little hole in my carbon footprint by its continued existence because I don't need another thing to worry about in my life. My life. I'm going through some stuff. My job, my wife, my kid, my friends. All taking some sort of toll on me, not necessarily good or bad, but just dropping pebbles on my path. I still have many, many things to be thankful for and I try to be aware of that every day. Maybe because there are now less days ahead for me than there are gone by, I spend too much time thinking about what I need to do to navigate through the rest of them. Of course, the answer is to just be and let what will come, come. Or maybe the answer is to figure it all out so I can sit back and exhale. I've gotten this far using a little bit of both methods when they suited the situation. 

 I miss my son though I want nothing more for him to have this time, this experience. I think he is embracing it - I truly believe he would be letting us know if he wasn't. Everyone has a different path and he will find his. I can only do so much and much of what I do, even with the best intentions, may not be the best course of action for him. I'm sure that the experience of being away at school, on his own, has already changed him only a month or so in. How could it not? I think he is being incredibly strong in dealing with the situation. I'm very proud. 

 I went to jury duty yesterday. It was an interesting experience. I did get selected, it's a civil case about an accident between a car and motorcycle. I don't fully understand but it seems that the monetary compensation has been determined - all we have to do is establish the fault and the ratio of blame. I've always wanted to participate and do my civil duty and to see the process. And so I shall. 

 I also saw the David Bowie documentary "Moonage Daydream" the other day, in IMAX with about six other people in the theater. Totally loved it. What an amazing body of work and the film was as unique as he was. Amazing surround sound mixes as well. Mick Ronson rules. 

 Not sure why I felt compelled to write a post today. Like getting on the treadmill in the morning, perhaps the takeaway is that I showed up, always the first and most important step.